My life is empty,
Cold and numb,
I hate you all,
My rule of thumb.
I Break away
From social chatter
The walls are closing
I tear and tatter.
Without release
I rip at the seams
Though silent in voice
My mind only screams.
A dark cloud of misery,
Doubt and remorse
There is no salvation
Or means of recourse.
So I smashed up some pills
And bumped every line
This blood on my wrists
Show's I'll be just fine.
And tomorrow won't come
Though it never does
And I'll go sleep
As if I never was.
An eye for an eye, you left me to die
Lucky that a man passed by.
Blood dripping from every end
No one sure that I would mend,
I'm still not sure why.
But I'll take my second try
And raise up to the sky,
Visit you old friend,
An eye for an eye.
And please don't be sly
Or try to cry,
You just can't defend
So I'm guessing this the end
And now I say goodbye
An eye for an eye.
It takes a while to see that where you're going isn't always where you want to be. You play the fool, get slapped. It will take years to fix the damage of our higher cause, deciding right and wrong for others. Bombings, killings, all the blood on the hands of innocent men and women who just wanted to go to college for what seemed to be a safe job. We ship them by the hundreds to what would otherwise be a lost cause and potential death of Iraqi masses. The desert sun will bake their skin and ready them for the final steps after a suicide car bomb sends shrapnel through their chests. All their future dreams lost in a shower of metal and fire. B
I left this world for all I lost
The darkness of my death took form
If only I had known the cost
Caught within a hellish storm.
I feel that life was but a dream
The pains of damnation are all I feel
Fire burns from every seam
Eternity is an endless wheel.
Break away the chains that hold me
This steel I forged when taking my life
Long ago lost hope to be free
Within these gates of mindless strife.
Please don't take what I've said light
Or you to, will feel God's might.
I look around,
this scary place,
And contimplate,
the human race.
Why were here,
And what we've done,
All the destruction,
No one has won.
It seems so sad,
To watch the news,
with all this war,
thats coming through.
It makes me think,
Of what I've done,
What can I do,
The damage is done.
I only hope,
My children be well,
This senseless has meaning,
In time we shall tell.
With these words upon my breath,
And eternal sadness in my chest,
I weep upon things of other days…
Broken hearts and shattered dreams,
Looking upon of that unseen,
Only to see the worsening day.
Famine and War,
Hungers galore,
Yet I weep... another day.
Whenever I feel my eyes close shut,
The darkness comes and swallows me up,
And stuck here until the break of dawn,
I feel my sadness and pain…
Tightly wrapped,
What the angels lack,
I leave with the silence of age.
Sadness is a curse upon me,
It lingers like a plague,
Making me feel unworthy,
To live throughout the day.
I wish god would just take me,
For I have nothing to live for.
This sadness that surrounds me,
Making my eyes feel so soar.
I never got the love I wanted,
From the person I loved true,
She considered me a friend,
And that hurt me too.
Then there is the criticism,
I receive throughout the day,
Making my face turn red,
And cover my head in shame.
I have no person to lean on,
When the day has not gone right,
I have no one to pray for,
When I go to sleep at night.
So for the time being,
I shall stay and weep,
Until the
I turned to you,
When troubles came,
You comforted me,
In the coming rains.
I came to you,
When the days weren't bright,
You agreed with me,
Wrong or right.
Your the reason,
I still smile,
I'm the purpose,
You stayed that while.
I loved you,
When you loved me,
You still do,
And still are we.
Over the years,
The time did pass,
But all in all,
It passed to fast.
I watched it go,
Never stopping,
To see my time,
Was slowly dropping.
And even now,
As a spirit I roam,
I still think back,
To a time I was home.
Good and bad,
We say life was,
But now to forget,
Those ways because,
To dwell on the past,
And centuries old,
Is to not remember,
The future I'm told.
How our bonds,
Have torn away,
Since the come,
Of that dark day,
And morning light,
And evening dark,
Tis' no matter,
In this remark,
I wake to cry,
I sleep from weep,
All across,
These many weeks,
Since the day,
You stole my heart,
Until the day,
Of this remark.
Drugs are bad,
Yes you know,
You do them anyway,
Your so slow.
Not to see,
Your gonna die,
Your might as well,
Attept to fly.
Off a building without a care,
It's gonna end anyway,
You don't have to stare?
It's a long drop,
So you better go now,
See you at the bottom,
Goodbye for now.
What's that you say?
You don't want to go,
Well that's to bad,
It's time to flow.
You said you did it,
Because of your friends,
Well now they're jumping,
You still their friend?
And so they've jumped,
They're looking for you,
Don't be a chicken,
What's wrong with you?
Now you see,
That it wasn't your friends,
They didn't force you,
W
Lies plague our friendship
All the lies you've told me
I feel I can never trust you
With all this bull you've sold me.
Why did you lie in the first place?
You know I had your back.
But I guess that didn't matter
With that love you seem to lack.
I'm just so pissed right now,
You broke my only heart.
Now your left alone,
To sit in lonely dark.
I guess we can't be friends,
Though you'll stay within my prayers,
Not because I love you,
But because I know you're there.
I wish there was just something,
Maybe if you told the truth,
Maybe if you said I'm sorry,
Maybe that would do.
My life is empty,
Cold and numb,
I hate you all,
My rule of thumb.
I Break away
From social chatter
The walls are closing
I tear and tatter.
Without release
I rip at the seams
Though silent in voice
My mind only screams.
A dark cloud of misery,
Doubt and remorse
There is no salvation
Or means of recourse.
So I smashed up some pills
And bumped every line
This blood on my wrists
Show's I'll be just fine.
And tomorrow won't come
Though it never does
And I'll go sleep
As if I never was.
Current Residence: Denton, MD Favourite genre of music: everything Operating System: Athlon MP3 player of choice: Ipod Shell of choice: Sand dollar Favourite cartoon character: Alucard Personal Quote: "Why get to know someone when the last thing you say to them is goodbye?"
who never does journal entries? charlie never does journal entries, o no he doesn't... but sometimes it becomes necessary for a change. the change i'm refering to is me not writing or looking at others deviations... i'm sorry for neglecting DA. I've just had a lot to do with school and stuff. the good part about this is that i almost got straight a's this semester giving me another dean's list, sadly ive grown apart from the DA community. Well school's over and I'M back. TTYL
im sick today and as if that wasnt a bitch ive lost my housing info for next year... WTF!!! I swear that god likes to play mindgames with me just to see how far he can take me before i qerk out
hey, the reason i havent been on writing, or commenting is because the server is down at my school, it crashed because so many people got on at once on check in day :-D so i have no access... later though when i do.
I'm a little late in saying anything as I've already started watching you, but Charles, I have to say you're one amazing poet! You have such a great writing style that easily makes me cry or laugh or crack a smile whenever I read your wonderful poetry! Very happy with all of the work you have submitted and look forward to seeing much much more! Keep up the fantastic work!!
*flyingglomp* hey. It was cool to finally meet ya. Im gad you had fun. We'll have to do it again sometime, only, maybe next time we can go somewhere without my parents up our butts or something? LOL. You and Rae make a cute couple. heeee